Too much work and too little sleep = cranky mommy
Things have not been easy around here lately and thus the shortage of posts. My new boss (did I mention my old boss is now working in Poland?) is a lot less centralizing than the old one was, and he delegates a great part of his responsibilities on me. This is a good thing, really, since I’ve been working here for 5 years and was starting to feel underestimated.
However, the down side is that I’ve been positively swamped with work and the increased responsibility is taking a bit of a toll on me. To make things even better, Manel has been cranky lately (teething, I think) and has not been sleeping so well. In fact, I think I’ve slept a total of 10 hours since the weekend, which is so not enough.
Sleep deprivation is absolutely the worse thing ever. But some of it, I must say, is my fault. I’m always the one who wakes up with the kids at night because dh simply does not hear them when he’s asleep. He tells me to wake him up but if I’m awake anyway, there’s no reason to wake him up as well right?
But what’s really stupid is that when I do wake him up, I cannot go back to sleep until he comes to bed because I feel guilty that he’s awake and I feel bad that he’ll be tired. How absolutely stupid is this? He doesn’t feel guilty or bad when I’m up with the kids, and he thinks it’s ridiculous that I feel that way. And he’s right, it is ridiculous. But somehow I can’t help it, and so I find myself waking him up less often and then feeling resentful the next day because I’m not getting any help from him. Poor guy, he can’t win can he?