Soul searching

Today is not a good day. I'm in a middle of a big fight with my boss that may not end in the best way. I like him, I really like my job and I have found an acceptable balance between work and family.
I have been putting in some extra effort (and hours) for the past few weeks because it's the end of the year and I know he is under addicional stress. I have not picked up R from daycare in over 2 weeks. Yesterday he evaluated me and lets just say it wasn't what I expected. I talked to him and he is reviewing it. We'll see how this ends.
Today R's daycare is closed so she stayed home with the housekeeper. When I left this morning she said "Mommy, don't work" and my heart sank. I have not been spending any time with her, her birthday has come and gone and I feel I haven't celebrated it as I should have and now Christmas is here and I have not one single present for her yet. I start to wonder if it's worth it and I know the answer.